Transformation of Anger

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Someone pulled the pin on a grenade of visceral anger
that’s been unconsciously buried deep within me
from a long time ago.

My first reaction was toward the one who incited this anger
the one who tread upon my heart, then turned the other cheek
a story from my past.

As I sat with this anger,
allowing it to bubble and churn
allowing it to effortlessly flow out of me
without allowing it to fester, without the need to process,
I realized I am the one I have been angry with all these years
for taking it all on, for shrinking into unworthiness
for playing the victim, for groveling for acceptance
allowing someone else to control my life
for a few tidbits of superficial love.

In that moment of realization
my raging anger was spontaneously transformed
by a flood of loving compassion
for the part of me who never felt accepted
for she who never felt seen for who she truly is
for the one that was afraid to stand up for herself
for fear of being rejected
for the one who did not recognize herself
as the precious being that she is.

In that moment of consciousness
the grenade of anger exploded into a burst of love
in which I now stand strong as a sovereign being
with my head held high with an open radiant heart.

To the one who unknowingly pulled the pin on my grenade
I surround you in love and compassion
for I know you were lashing out in response
unaware of the pain and anger buried deep within you.

I pray that each one of us is able to consciously awaken
to the love that is always nestled side by side
in compassion for the anger that’s been buried within us
and may we all stand tall with open radiant hearts.
*
~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
“message from my inner wisdom”
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The year of my Ultimate Love Affair

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It’s a dark rainy day here in the Pacific Northwest and I’ve never felt more content. There was a time I might have allowed days such at this to depress me, especially when they string themselves together for days or weeks at a time during the winter months. Instead, I recognize the value of snuggling in with a warm cuppa whatever pleases me in the moment and a keyboard at my fingertips. Today is December 29th, the day before New Year’s Eve. As we are often wont to do, my mind is wandering back over this past year. As I’m doing so I realize. . .

This past year has been my most Stellar Year ever!!!

And I have nothing, not a single thing to show for it. I have accomplished nothing. I have not moved to a new home, initiated a new relationship or a new job as so many others have done this year. I haven’t added anything to my life. In fact, I have less now than I had at the beginning of this year. So much of my prior life has dissolved over the past few months and I’ve passed on many of the physical things that no longer resonate with me to be shared by those who will benefit from them. Therefore, not only have I nothing to show for this year, I own less than I have in a very long time.

Although I haven’t gained anything in the material world, what I have gained has no measure. I am more abundant, happy and content than I have ever been. How do you measure such things?

At the beginning of 2017, I knew this would be a year like no other. While others were writing their lists and repeating their new year’s resolutions like mantras, I made a choice to step into the unknown and allow my Soul to lead the way.

Without realizing it 2017 became the year of my Ultimate Love Affair.

And everything in my life has changed because of it. Although Love has been courting me for quite some time, this was the year I finally fell head over heels in Love with my self. I always wondered about that phrase to “fall in love”. Shouldn’t it be to “rise in love”? This past year I finally understood the depth of “falling in love”. For this past year I have delved deeply into a passionate loving relationship with my human self, nurturing all those fallen parts of my self that got bruised or lost along the way. All those aspects of my self that had been hiding in the shadows for fear of not being good enough to be loved. I simply made a choice to open my arms and invite them all into one big love fest. . . the good, the bad and the ugly.

As a result, what I have experienced this past year has been an ever expanding Love of self. The parts of me that felt most unloved immediately pushed themselves to the front like two year olds with their demanding “me first” attitude. Oh how much I learned from these wee wise ones that our society had sent to the corner for an extended “time out” because they didn’t fit into the pre-made boxes. No wonder they became so vocal! (she says with a chuckle and a wink of the eye). With the patience of Love, each one was intimately heard, honored, and embraced until my Inner Sanctuary became more quiet and spacious, which reflected in my outer world as well.

The more I loved my self, the more I began to love my physical body in ways I had harbored judgment in the past, seeing it as the blessed temple that embodies all of who I Am. Thus I cleared much of its density, activated my LightBody and began the process of rejuvenation, which progressed to the integration of both my human and Soul attributes as my SoulBody. (see my prior post “Behind the Scenes of Soul Embodiment” for more about the SoulBody). This is a new way of being and I’m still playing with it much like a child with a new toy. I’m like a kid at Christmas bubbling over with joy because I just unwrapped the gifts for which I have been yearning for a very long time, lifetimes. Walking this planet as a conscious embodied Soul is what I have always aspired to do. Indeed we are constantly changing and expanding our consciousness so this is not the end of the story. It is a new beginning as we embark upon another new year.

By choosing to live in a small home, free of the cost and eternal maintenance of extraneous things, I am experiencing a spaciousness of both time and space. Time has dissolved, allowing me to live free of the mind’s restraints and cycles that held me captive. Without the interference of those disruptive aspects that have now come into the fold of Love, time becomes irrelevant for I am able to live in the moment. The past has been freed and the future has no need for planning.

This opens a whole new world of potentials beyond anything the mind could envision!!! Words like abundance have disappeared from my vocabulary because I now live in the infinite that only knows abundance so there is no need to speak of it anymore. I simply live it because Love knows no other way.

I now have the spaciousness of an open clear mind, able to recognize and honor that each person has their own soul path for their own unique growth and expansion. Therefore, there is no room or reason for my judgment or interference. This has freed me to love them where they are because there are no more battles to fight, personally or for the collective. For even the human collective has its own soul path which needs to play out without my interference. The most beneficial thing I can offer to the world is my own Love of self which ripples throughout the entire consciousness. Herein lies my peace and contentment with life as it continues to reveal itself unto me.

There aren’t any shadows lurking in the corners anymore because my Light shines brightly. All of my love and light dimmers have been loved into higher service. So BRIGHT it is!!! I know this can frighten some people because they are afraid of what they may see. And that’s okay because I will happily hand out sunglasses for those who would like more time in their own sacred darkness along their unique soul path until they are ready to remove them with their own divine timing. BTW: I also have some rose colored glasses available for anyone who chooses to partake of the Ultimate Love Affair. 😉

Amidst all the chaos and turmoil happening in the world around us, my experience has been a year of sweetness as I continually immerse my self in Love. Tears of gratitude and joy are overflowing from my depths for the courage it has taken to face that which I was afraid was unlovable. Today I can honestly say, I so Love ME, all of ME. I feel this Love as my Soul feels it for my human self. I’m simultaneously feeling the Love my human self feels for my Soul.

As another year draws to a close. . . Here I AM, having experienced the melding of ME. . . My Energies, my human and my Soul. . .All of ME as the purity of Source.

Therefore, THIS has been a Stellar Year!!!
Although I have little to show as manifestation goes, what I have is ME.
*
~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
www.sharonlynshepard.com

 
For more about my journey with self Love you might enjoy reading these:
Crazy Love
Love Affair of the Soul and the Human

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The Love Affair of the Soul and the Human

Tree Spirits by Liza Paizis

Last year at this time I had one of the most lucid and profound dreams I’ve ever experienced. During this dream, a former lover from many years ago was walking toward me. I could feel an abundance of love coming from him. The closer he got to me the more love I was feeling. At some point I realized this love was not coming from him. He was simply the reflection of my love for my self. As he continued walking toward me this love became so overwhelming fear burst forth from within me. Fear that it would overpower and kill me. I wanted to scream out, “Stop! I can’t take anymore.” But the words would not come. From somewhere beyond this fear I knew I needed to simply allow it to engulf me. The only thing I could do was surrender to this overwhelming, overpowering destructive force of love. Once I released all resistance, I did indeed die.

I melted into a puddle on the floor. He who had appeared as my old lover disappeared. I was naked and alone in an empty abyss. The old me had died. Everything that was not of love had been obliterated and died along with me.

And then little pin points of light began to appear all around me, creating a mandala of sorts. The pattens kept changing, much like a kaleidoscope. Some of these pieces were glowing from within. Others were rather dense and murky, gaining clarity as they were drawn toward me from out of the darkness. I observed with fascination as this process continued, until I realized these were all aspects of me, pieces of me. Many of them had been hidden in the shadows, tossed away by my prior judgements. Others had been locked within walls that were now instantaneously melting from the Love radiating from within me. I watched as all of me, all of my aspects gathered together into wholeness once again dancing in beautiful patterns of radiant color and light. At this point I fell into a very deep sleep and slept for many hours.

When I finally awoke, life looked and felt very different to me. This was not a dream. This was the realization of my Self as the purity of Divine Love and the acceptance of all of Who I Am, as my Soul knows me to be. I could not have orchestrated or thought this into being with my mind, even from within a meditative state. I could only do this from an expanded state of consciousness. Therefore my Soul gifted me with this lucid dream. The gift of knowing that I Am Love and all the aspects of me are loved and honored without any judgement. This knowing that it’s safe for All of me to come home, to share the experiences that life has offered me, all the stories, all the pain, all the joys. Each one a facet of the Love and radiance of Who I Am.

Now here I am a year later and what a year it has been!!!
All these pesky aspects that have been awakened or released from their walled in prisons have been elbowing their way into my heart to be enveloped in Love. Some of them have been an absolute joy to embrace. Others, I cringe to say, have pulled me into their own darkness before I was able to see clearly by the spark of Love that was always present. The gift of Divine Love is that I have surrendered the fight. My arms are always wide open no matter what presents, or how it presents. Love always knows what to do. Therefore I simply surrender it all to Love and allow it to sort itself out without the need to defend or interfere.

This has been a time for diving deeply into realizing more of my Self and integrating this new expanded awareness. Nothing else matters to me anymore. It’s as if it doesn’t exist. A few days ago I tried reading a story someone wrote about her spiritual journey. In the past this would have been very engaging to me but it now feels very old and boring. That’s how my old stories feel to me as well. I have no interest in them or in the mainstream world that is no longer my reality.

A few days ago I asked myself: What do I want to do now that I have this new awareness? What reality do I choose to create? Today this question feels unimportant to me. It feels like it was coming from my human restlessness. How much of that restlessness is the human’s need to feel worthy of itself? My current perception of Love has quelled that question. Quite frankly I have no desire to “do” anything. I am simply basking in this new realization of who I Am. I don’t know what my life will look like from a human perspective and I feel no hurry to take any action in that direction yet. 

This morning feels very quiet, free of any external noise, free of any thoughts. I’m feeling the deep contentment of “I Exist, I Am, I Am Here.” I’m sensing my human aspects and my Soul embracing this new passion with and for each other. I feel no desire to take any action right now, no desire to “do” anything. Instead, I’m feeling drawn to savor this relationship, to go more deeply into this passion and expand upon it.

While reading the book “Act of Consciousness” by Adamus Saint-Germain through Geoffrey & Linda Hoppe, I came upon a passage that clarified things for me. “The divine distills every experience into wisdom.” Taking the liberty to paraphrase it further: The soul wants to experience just for the sake of experiencing. It doesn’t need to validate itself for it is already complete in the knowing that it exists. The soul takes everything the human experiences, distills it into its pure wisdom, drinks that in and falls more deeply in love with itself, again and again and again with every new experience.

Last year at this time when I had what I call my Enlightenment Dream, I realized “I Am Love.” I thought that was the ultimate sense of loving one’s self. Indeed, that was true at the time and. . . I have continued loving my self more and more and more. This is an ongoing expansion of Love, a love affair between the human and the Soul. This is the true relationship I have always been searching for.

I sometimes think I would like a partner. Then I realize I really don’t want to live with anyone else right now. I thought I did, but that was my old dream of home and family which I’ve already experienced in this lifetime. My ultimate desire is a relationship with my Self. I was thinking how nice it would be to share my experiences with someone or to offer my love through my actions with another.

In many ways I am already doing this. Isn’t that what my daily journaling is? Conversations with my Soul. Conversations with my I Am. Conversations with the different aspects of my Self, the aspects I have created to experience more of who I Am. What I am doing now is embracing all of my self into wholeness once again, consciously distilling all the stories into their wisdom and loving my self again and again and again.

Indeed, the Soul has already done this. But my human self has only recently become aware of this. Through the grace of my Soul, there is nothing that needs to be done, no searching, no processing. Simply allowing these aspects to present themselves, to come out of the human shadows to be loved and accepted, just as the Soul has already done. Like the prodigal’s daughter returning home, this is a sweet experience. It need not be difficult. It need not take any effort. I realize, the more I sit quietly gazing out into nature, allowing the space for this to happen, the more effortless it becomes. Ease and Grace has become my way of being and Love is Who I Am.

After so much struggle in my life, how simple and easy this feels to me now. How satisfying. How fulfilling. How empty I feel of the stories and the human yearnings. And how full I feel of my Self. Enlightened Embodiment. This is what it is. Embodying All of Who I Am, here and now in this physical body. Human and Divine in sweet delicious consciousness.

~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
“message from my inner wisdom”
www.sharonlynshepard.com

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Moving Beyond Conflict

Artwork by Nadejda Sokolova

Artwork by Nadejda Sokolova

A new world beckons and the calling is from deep within us, luring us into the grace-filled life our GodSelf knows we are meant to be living.

As we all know, a world in transition is a world of chaos. The old needs to break apart to make space for the new. We’re seeing it in our external world as well as our internal. The old systems, beliefs, agendas, rituals and ways of doing things no longer align with an awakening heart and a more conscious mind.

Conflict is arising between the old and the new. We’re seeing that in all areas of global unrest. More importantly we’re feeling it inside of ourselves. But we do not have role models for the new and exciting world we are beginning to imagine. We want change so badly we can taste it. At the same time, we fear the unknown.

It’s obvious we can not take our old baggage with us into this new world. Every time we try, the bridge between the two breaks down from the weight we are carrying. Each time we plunge into the chaotic waters, diving deeply to release just a little bit more. Or, we return to our original shores attempting to fit back in again, to no avail because the old no longer works for us.

Over the years I have found peace and grace in the mystical path that I have forged for myself during these times of transition. The other day I picked up a book about the monastic mystics. As a present day mystic, I was curious about the path of the ancient mystics. The beginning of the book was helpful in clarifying the intent of a mystic and I was able to fully claim my own Inner Mystic. (see my prior post “Present Day Mystic”) But I felt resistance to many of the practices of the ancient mystics which felt heavily burdening to me. Whereas my mystical practices instill the lightness of ease and grace in a world of chaos.

As I contemplate this I realize several things. Because many of us have been approaching life from the basis of pure Love and Light the overall energies of our planet are now much lighter and supportive. As Renaissance men and women, we have broken away from the old beliefs, rules and rituals that have held us in place for eons of time. However, many of the psychological practices of digging deep to examine our wounds for healing and pushing through them have become an ongoing process, snaring us in an eternal mental and emotional loop. However, this is only true if when we approach it from a perspective of duality. If we take a step back from these processes, we realize the current expanded energies of Love are releasing the old density without our assistance.

In this new energy, we simply need to allow what no longer serves us to surface of its own accord in it’s perfect timing. And it will because when the light shines upon our shadows they are ready and asking to be loved and released without being poked at before their time. This a natural organic process of evolution and spiritual expansion that does not require hard work, struggle and suffering as we’ve been taught. It is our continual poking the stick in the mud that keeps it alive, rather than allowing the Waters of Love to simply wash it away.

Many of the antiquated teachings and rituals that have been handed down to us need to be reexamined. But by throwing them all to the wind, we loose our base of support and our rudder in life. Instead our practices need to be continually lightened up to accommodate the new energies with new navigational skills because we are expanding so quickly.

So, what are my present day mystical practices?

~ Meditation ~
Going beyond the mental chatter, allowing thoughts to pass through without engaging, to enter a clear space of silence. Meditation does not need to be a static activity. It can just as easily be a walk in nature, dancing, or whatever else leads you into the silence. With practice, silence itself draws you into the silence.

~ Silence ~
Silence is the gateway to the Divine that resides within me. It is in this space that infinite potentials rest, awaiting my awareness. Solutions to situations that plague me. And surprises to delight me.

~ Prayer ~
Prayer is how I converse with my GodSelf. This is not a request for God to change things in my life. It is an intimate conversation with my GodSelf from an expanded perspective to ascertain what changes “I” can make as the Creator of my life.

~ Self Love ~
No matter what is happening in my life, it is always a reflection of self Love. If life is smooth as silk, it’s an indication that I am honoring and loving myself. If there are bumps or boulders in the road, it is never about another person or other things. It’s always a call for expanding my self love.

~ Allowing ~
When I surrender to the Grace of the Divine, I allow love and joy to reveal themselves to me in miraculous ways.

I share my spiritual practices as a springboard for you to create you own personal practices to move beyond conflict, especially during these times of transition. I remind you to allow them to be ever evolving as we create a new playground of Love and Joy. For I believe that has always been our purpose here on planet earth. And I look forward to celebrating it all with you… the conflict that creates new worlds…. and the Joy that evolves from it.

~ Sharon Lyn Shepard ~
http://www.sharonlynshepard.com

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