Fear of Losing our Minds

My concept of time, as well as my sleep patterns, have become totally distorted. Someone posted a lovely photo on facebook the other day that said, “Happy Thursday!” I wrinkled my brow thinking, is it really Thursday? I thought it was Saturday. I double checked the date on the post against the date on my computer and sure enough, it was Thursday.

Sleep has gone wacky as well. Since it gets dark so early now, my eyes droop and I finally give into crawling under my cozy aubergine duvet no matter what the clock says. I have a tendency to crawl into bed a couple of hours after dusk, which often happens to be around 7 or 8 pm. Gone are the days of being the twilight artisan who stays awake until the wee hours of the morning after writing a new piece of music or editing a series of poems.

The past few nights, as droopy as my eyes became, sleep eluded me. I laid in bed watching the night sky through my window as the stars made their rounds visiting everyone on earth. The other night, my mind was all a chatter. None of my usual tricks worked. I knew the only way to pacify it was to get up and do something active.

At 3am, I finally acquiesced. In the pitch dark, I pulled on some comfy clothes and stumbled out of the bedroom. Before I knew what I had done, I had pulled everything out of my one and only closet. Because it’s my only closet, you can only begin to imagine the array of things strewn across the floor of my one bedroom carriage house.

At this point, I was a woman possessed with clearing the inside of the closet. If I wasn’t fully awake by this point, the sting of vinegar to my nose brought me fully present. I washed down the walls and shampooed the carpet. Then placed the air cleaner inside before tackling the mess of clothes, shoe boxes, luggage, backpacks, artwork, wrapping paper, cleaning supplies, old Amazon shipping envelopes, and an array of other unmentionables. One would think there was an expanding back wall to this closet by the amount of things it held. By this time the sky was turning pink and a new day was dawning. It was time to toss what no longer serves me and reorganize that which still does.

I couldn’t help but consider the metaphor of clearing out the dusty corners of our closets as it relates to the clearing of our minds. By 3pm, a mere 12 hours later, my closet had been totally reorganized with everything laundered and smelling sweet once again. I must say, if I had placed this on a to-do list, my mind would have gyrated over it for months, rather than just getting it done. I chuckle at how much we can accomplish while sleepwalking in the middle of the night.

The following night, sleep came easily. I immediately dropped into a very deep sleep. Until. . . I awoke screaming! My whole body trembled as I recalled the dream that jarred me awake in such terror. I share with you this dream:

[I was playing some kind of board game with a group of people. Since I wasn’t interested in the game, I left and went back to my room to spend some time alone. As I was laying on my bed, I saw a young boy enter my room. He began licking and nibbling at my body. I noticed he wasn’t human, but had some strange animal like ears. I told him to let me alone, but he kept at me. I tried to yell but was frozen with fear, unable to even take a breath. I finally said to myself, “I either do this, or I will perish.” So I mustered all my courage, inhaled a deep breath and screamed. The scream was so loud it woke me up in a tremor, shaking with fear. When I opened my eyes he had disappeared. I lay there with my eyes open for a very long time, afraid to close them. I finally had a little chat with myself, repeatedly saying, “I Am Safe, I Am Safe.” Eventually I was able to fall back into a peaceful asleep.]

This was the first time I had a fearful dream in very long time. I wondered if this had to do with nefarious beings as overlapping timelines are in the process of dissolving. But that did not feel quite right. I recalled the metaphor for cleaning out one’s closet, which I had done the night before. So what was I clearing? Since it’s all my energy, what was my energy doing? What was it trying to tell me?

Ha! I finally realized it was my human mind that was so fearful. My human mind that is unable to shut down, always chattering away, always feeding on my energy. How threatened it becomes when I choose to leave the games of the world behind to be alone in the quiet with my Self. It was not my own fear that had me terrorized, it was the fear of my human mind. Its fear of walking away from the rest of the world to be in solitude. Its fear of me wanting to walk away from it. Its fear of death.

Well, NO MORE! I am no longer worried about not fitting in with the norm. I am no longer in fear of losing my mind. I am done allowing my human mind to eclipse my own inner wisdom and influence my actions.

This morning, as the warm rays of the sun touch upon my heart, I am able to embrace my human mind with love and compassion. I can assure it that it still has a place in my life, but it no longer needs to be burdened by running my life. I am asking it to support me in a whole new way. It is no longer in the driver’s seat attempting to avoid anything that has harmed me in the past. Nor attempting to fix or avoid the future. Instead, we are living in the moment. Instead, we are trusting the wisdom and guidance of our Soul. We are forming a new team that knows and trusts that all energy is in service to us.

Today is a new day. All is well and I am open to new potentials that go way beyond the fear of losing our minds.
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~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
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Retracting the Veils of Avalon

avalon-boat

Our entire solar system has moved into a new mystical space in the omniverse. I call it mystical because the old logical patterns of life are no longer sustainable and the new way of being often feels unreal or mystical to us. And yet, this new way of being is our innate way of being.

Because the old world structures are breaking down with such rapidity humanity has become caught in the chaos as they attempt to hold onto the old way of being. It has has become increasingly difficult for those of us who are empathetic and sensitive to energies to live in this world. As a result many of us have withdrawn from the mainstream into our inner sanctum to live a life that’s more aligned with who we know ourselves to be.

For many spiritual people our inner sanctum can be likened to Avalon, our personal place of mysticism, protected from the outer world. The more time we spend here, the more mystical it becomes and the more disjointed the mainstream feels to us.

These are some of the things I’m experiencing in my Inner Isle of Avalon:

~ As the gateway between worlds, it allows me to consciously choose from a multitude of potentials with divine timing rather than linear progression.

~ Time is no longer linear, it responds to my present way of being. If I feel crunched for time because I’m in my logical mind attempting to reconcile the past with the future, time speeds up. If I’m in the present moment, time becomes irrelevant.

~ Dreamtime has become very lucid and interactive, blending into my everyday life.

~ Logic has its place but it’s no longer running the show. The magick and wisdom of Merlin is guiding my every moment as long as I’m not distracted and I allow it to be so.

~ Avalon is the stronghold of the Elementals and the Fae… teaching me how to live, flow and create “with” nature. Joy and playfulness is prevalent here because life was never meant to be hard. Life is meant to be lived in beauty, song and dance.

~ In this sanctuary of the feminine, as the guardian of the sacred grail of pure love compassion and forgiveness, the alchemy of Love is ever present.

~ As the birthplace of the Knights of the Roundtable, established to govern “with” the people, Avalon holds the blueprint for right governance based on principles of mutual respect, equal representation and the blending of magical and sacred values with the secular in a happy, harmonious and productive marriage of heaven and earth.

avalon-mists~ In Celtic lore, Avalon is the entrance to the Underworld where hidden realities become visible. The Sword of Excalibur cuts through to the eternal Truth, thus we are remembering our ancient Knowing embodied within our cells and the crystalline core of Gaia. We all have the opportunity to withdraw the Sword of Excalibur and cut through the mists of amnesia. All it takes is a pure heart.

Our inner Sanctuary of Avalon is the embodiment of the Vesica Pisces, with Avalon acting as the integration of the two overlapping circles of heaven and earth. By having a foot in both worlds, we have been co-creating new realities in conjunction with Gaia with the natural flow of the Laws of the Universe. When we venture out into the mainstream world our expanded energy field effects everything and everyone who comes in contact with us. In this way we are awakening humanity to a new way of life.

On the days when we’re feeling disconnected from reality, walking around in what feels like a fog, it’s because we’ve stepped out of the old matrix and have yet to acclimate to living full time in the new realities we’re creating. During these times the veils of Avalon are disengaging us from old patterning. It’s important to remain grounded in our inner sanctum and surrender to the infinite wisdom that is directing our every action.

At the moment the veils of Avalon are in service to us as we are co-creating a new reality for all of humanity to step into when they are ready to awaken. Know that we are approaching the time when the veils of Avalon will be permanently retracted and the revelations of a New Earth will be revealed to all. Until then trust and savor this sacred process for we will never come this way again. Engage in the magic that presents itself, for you are the Merlin of your own reality.

~Sharon Lyn Shepard~
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